& Silence Declares♥

It has been a long time since I have supper with my Dad..... haha.... It is so hearty to be able to talk to him over some stuffs that I have coup up in my heart for so long.... We have chicken chop and fried hokkien mee...... Taste good and i felt so good as well.......

Come to work today, something interesting..... Someone has donated a voice message recorder to the SSA. So Mas, Jenny and I ended up spending time playing and testing the machine out.... haha.... It was so fun..... Anyway, duno why I came for work today, because it seem that I have nothing much to do today..... There are so much works to be done, yet I can only do it when I meet the course director tomorrow.......

When to *her blog today, dun really know what she is doing or thinking nowaday..... I'm still concern over her as my friend..... Just duno what to do or how to handle this friendship anymore especially not after what have happen between both of us..... Ying Ying ask me out for a badminton match tomorrow together with Reggie and *her, but I got to work..... Was hoping for an opportunity to speak with her... But I think i have lost a very wonderful chance..... hai.... Maybe I will get another chance soon.

No matter what is going to happen between me and *her in the future, I will not think so much and worry so much..... If you ever see this, Just wanna say, You Are Still My Friend! All The Best For Your Studies!

There is a campfire going on tonight in Bukit Batok Sec..... Another wonderful opportunity to purify my heart, my soul and my mind. Going to enjoy myself....

All the best, people.

Quote for today:

Do no harm to others and others will not harm you.

Cya~

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Hello people..... I'm back to blog again..... Haha.... Wednesday was very interesting for me..... Finally, I met my Mentor who is in the National Scout Training Team, Mdm Krishna.... Haha.... It is so nice to see her again..... She treated me dinner and we chatted for 3 hours.... During the conversation, she enlighten me on alot of thing..... Like how to solve my family problems etc.... It was then that I realise though I always thought that I'm not affected by my family problem, but it seem to be otherwise..... Mdm Krishna pointed out that it was due to these problems that I'm trouble and not performing in my studies....

It was a long time even since I have such a long chat with a senior who can really advice me......

After that, I called Kat to ask her on when to meet so that I could return her digital cam to her..... but guess what? It is lucky that I have not return her the cam yet, cos I will be needing it for a campfire tml..... Haha..... This reminded me on the conversation that I have with Kat...... She was telling that she got lost for 1 hr plus in Ang Mo Kio Ave 10...... I were so shock and unsurpise that I said:

Women Have the WORSE sense of direction.....

Haha..... But I meant no offence to all other ladies..... Haha..... It is just that Kat can never find her ways....... Hahaha.... Were laughing for the whole night........ The more I thought about it, the more funny it get...... So Kat, is that what Guiding have taught you?

Just Joking....... Meant no offence really...... I'm sorry if you read this and get offended...... My sincere apology........

Well..... Nothing to write liao..... Tomorrow is campfire day again.... Haha.... So happy.....
Will enjoy myself to the fullest.... Just wana say this to Chin Wah:

Hey bro, I'm sorry that I cannot be there for you when you need me...... I'm sorry to leave you to eat dinner alone tml..... My sincere apology.....

Family are the key to a successful life

Cya people..... Till next Time....

Silence ;

1 more week to school reopening, A level defintely look closer from this period of time..... Haha...... As I was opening my eyes to see things that are happening around me recently, it dawns on me that I'm not the only one with all the problem coming to me..... I mean look at Chin Wah, he is definitely not much better off than me..... Just wana say bro, don't get bother by all your problems...... At least your family are supporting you.... I may be wrong but at least that is what I see now......

My Group Scout Leader was persuading me to not leave my Scout Unit. But I have make up my mind. Nothing will change my decision on leaving..... After all I finally know what I want and the things I'm looking for in Scouting..... From there i will move on with no regret..... I thanks my GSL for being so kind and understanding... But I realised I can never fit in a place that is so closed off..... It is like I does not belong to that place at all.....

Everything that happen to you have a hidden meanig or lesson in it.... It is whether you can see these meanings and lessons and learn from it....

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Duno what I'm suppose to do today..... I'm still tired..... Not having enough sleep and having a slight flu..... Suppose to meet Chin Wah for a run this morning, but my mum say she need to go to the Dentist, so no choice.... Did not meet Chin Wah....I must accompany my mum..... However, just as I have predicted, my mum did not get to go to the Dentist today.... Look like we must still drag for a while..... I duno why so many people on this always say things that they never mean to say.....

Sometime like what Chin Wah have always says,

things get complicated when we are looking for simplicity in life.

Last night as I was travelling back home, I passes by Punggol..... Lotsa memories just start surfacing in my mind..... I reali miss those days where I used to talk and chit chat with *her. But, it is all over..... Hope she find someone that suit her better...... I'm not the one for her I guess...... Why must this World be so complicated?
Can't simplicity keep things going? Guess I still have lots to learn.....

So long.....

Silence ;

Was interrupted halfway when I was blogging.... haha.... Things have been passing by me in a daze... Still looking upon my Scouting Light to guide me out of this .... But whether I will find my direction again, still depend on me....

Only one know what his goal is.

Out of sudden, I have lost my goal.... the aim in me is lost..... I feel very disappoint with the series of event that have happen for the past few weeks..... Sometime I'm wondering why m I experiencing this, but I guess all this experiences will only strengthen me farther.... So It alright..... I know, I can still survive and get through it myself or with my friends......

Like what was said in Batman Return,

why do people fall?
So that they can find a reason to stand up again.

This is the belief that I holding to now...... Well, got to work hard for my A level..... Maybe this is a wake up call for me that is in disguise..... No matter what, only I know what I want to do in life.

Cya people.... till next time.

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Haha.... Hope you people have seen the photo that I have uploaded which was taken during my Scout Basic course camp.... Lotsa fun, laughter and joy floating around.... Recently, I realise that I'm lost..... I no longer know what am I aimimg for and searching for anymore..... It is like I know I need to get into the University, need to work hard for A level.... and everything.... But I no longer know why I am doing that anymore..... In my heart, I always long for a elder brother, so that there is someone to guide me and teach me... Someone to be my role model.... I have searching for a best friend..... Someone who know me, understand me and someone whom I know is always there for me..... I know that it is not easy to find someone like this..... But I'm still searching.....

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Our pioneering Team

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See me and my bro in the backgound?

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Mafeking 2005

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Smile Guys....

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Hello people, how are you guys today? Well, I'm tired.... Physically tired.... haha..... After the outburst yesterday, I'm definitely feeling better today.... Thank you to those who have left encouraging messages on my tag yesterday.... But, can you pls leave your name behind? if not, I will be in a daze.... Maybe you dun wan me to know who you are but I reali do appreciate the fact if you can leave your name..... Thank... Anyway, I'm not writing much today coz I'm in a rush.... C u guys tml.... I'm catching Batman Begin later.... Cya...

Life is dull if you live your live in a routine manner

Take Care pple!

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Damn Angry with my Scout boys today... They think they are so pro in their Scout skills? Then they better make sure that nothing happen during the camp itself tonight. I'm reali getting very fed up with the boys... Before the camp, I have already told them that no soccer or any sport games are allow. Even my GSL has back me up on that..... Since they are so smart, then whether I'm around or not, make no difference.

Sometime, I'm on the verge of giving up, but faith in me kept me going on, no matter how tough the journey is.... But after today, the faith in me is lost..... I can't go on anymore... Maybe like what all my friends have been telling me,

Duty to self before duty to other.

If I can't even settle myself and make myself happy, how can I help other?
This is a reflection I have to do..... In my heart now, I felt so disappointed and upset... Why people in this world can't think far? Why must they always think that they are right... I believe this is the time where I got to let go..... Farewell Triace Scout Group.

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Triace Training Camp

The campfire on Saturday by Sapphire Rover was an very interesting Campfire.... There are alot of my friends who were invited for the campfire.... Basically, Saturday end with a very pleasent note.

On Sunday, reported in at 3pm for Peirce Scout Annual Training Camp. When I reach there, I realise that my GSL has not arrive yet. So scout being Scout, my Boys and I have decided to enter the school illegally by climbing over the school gate. In the process of climbing in, I were scratch by the barb wire on top of the gate.... So now I pian ti lin sang.... But I'm still alrite.... After 7 years, I finally played my 1st soccer match with my Sec 3 boys.... They are a bunch of cute and interesting fellow that I have ever known.

Apart from having scratches, both my legs are very sore now.....

Like what I have Said before,

In order to play hard, you must also work hard.

C u next times.

Silence ;

Enjoy

Today is another interesting day for me. Went to my HQ at 3pm. Met alot of my friend in Scout.... And my work just ended, it time to enjoy myself and purify my soul to strike a balance in my life. IT'S CAMPFIRE TIME..... haha.... Looking forward to it.... well, got to go.... Fill you people up tomorrow.... Cya. Meanwhile, Keep Cool.

Another of my believe,

When its time to work, you work hard.
When is time to play, you play hard.

Cya people.

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Interesting day in my work place

Well, after the heartbreak yesterday, I feel a bit better today. In the morning, went down to Peirce for Scout meeting. Nothing much happen anyway, except to find out that my Sec 2 are not happy with the Scout Leader and me.... Haiz... Also duno what is their problem.... But I just ignore them.... then went for lunch with my fellow Scouter.... After that, go for work in the HQ. Lot of laughter was floating arund in the atmosphere, specially from me and the Admin Executive, Mas aka snowman aka penguin... haha... Meet up with a lot of my Scout friends... they are still the same and still so nice. end work at 6.30pm...

Back to my heartbreak, I have known my Ex for 7 years already... Only started when about 6 weeks ago.... How can she ask for a break up just because I went for a 3 days 2 nights camp last week end? Why must she be so cruel to shatter all my happiness and confidence that I have build up for so long? And why must she be so selfish to think only about how she feel? But she will never know that by suggesting a break up, the other party will feel one thousand times worser than her. On Wed, when I was out wit hmy scout friends, she came to look for me to ask me for a chance to patch back.... Just wanna say it is too late... What done cannot be undone.... She have hurt me so deeply that there is no way that I could let her hurt me again.... Even if I give her a chance, it will only extend our break up date.... Since she said that she is too immature for a relationship, so be it. I will respect her decision and if she want to dump our 7 years of friendship into the drain, then just it be. Coz she has already hurt me too much... I just hope that she will not do any harm to herself like committing suicides or any of this sort. I will always regard her as my friend.... So long....

To be successful, experienceing failure is a must.

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First Blog

Hai.... Today is a very sad day for me.... Just broke up with the one I loved.... 7 years of friendship might just be gone like a typhoon sweeping across a land.... Well, since this is my 1st post... So I dun reali have much to write... My heart is broken....

Like what I always believe in:

When love have arrive, there is no way you can hide from it. But when love go, you can never hold it back.

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