& Silence Declares♥

It is another rainie day again.... A thunderstorm just ended.... Haiz....

Got lots to settle today.... everything that got to do with family and stuff.... I'm just so sick and tired to see my parents quarreling over money issues.... Now things have worsen to the extent where none of them would talk to each other... haiz...

Sometime, staying at Fo tang is still the best.... I miss a perfect family that I have in the past.... I miss all the good good things that I have in the past... at the period when I'm still studying.... NS changes everything.... Haiz....

Duno what to blog now.... Very moody...

mayb I will blog again when I'm feeling better later....

Silence ;

What a great day today... For the 1st time in the week, I did not see any rain falling on the place that I was at.... haha... Sound quite weird right??? Haha... Rain always remind me of my loneliness and sadness... This is something that I dun wan to see for the moment... I mean I already feel blue in spirit.... Thus seeing rain will make it worse.... and I dun wan to wall my feeling off again....

Now let me stop rattling over the sad stuff and inform everyone how much I have enjoyed my day today.... haha....

Today, for the 1st time in 5 months, I went back to Bu Xi Ban again to help out and liao yuan in my fo tang teenage tuition group.... Felt so glad to see the kids again.... haha.... They are still the same; mischievious, playful and fun to be with... haha....

I have miss them alot.... Felt so bad that I did not help my tutee out for his final year... But glad that he have do rather well for his academic....

After that all Jiao Dao Yuan ( Tutors) have a meeting on the planning of some upcoming activities for the kids.... CAn see that it is going to be a very interesting Dec for the kids.... and there are a lot of preparation to be done... Thus a busy month ahead for me....

Went to Ban Tao to liao yuan at Li Fei's Fo Tang.... Stayed there till abt 6pm before rushing off to meet Guoming for a proper dinner at Circuit road.... haha... Miss the food over there... But haiz.... Guoming and me overestimated Wei Ping's food capacity.... haha.... We ended up wasting abit of food.... haiz... *reproaching myself*....

Then Guoming got to go off to his Fo Tang for some lesson I think.... So Wei Ping and me went to Vivocity for a walk... ( and to digest my food)... Haha...

Vivocity is really big.... very very big.... I can only finish walking 1/5 of the whole shopping centre.... WOW!!! Go there again another day with Guoming to finish walking the whole mall....

P.S: Wow, Ying Hui, that place is so big... How u manage to walk until sian??? haha....

Very tired!!! Going to watch the new VCD I got from Protene.... Take care....

Silence ;

Love is indeed a doubled edged sword that can harm u and save u... I broke up with my GF... Reason? Because I love her too much to c her suffer everytime she dun get to c me or whenever I have more impt things to do and thus cannot go out with her.... I dun bear to c her suffer in silent because of me... I dun wan her to be unhappy.... I guess we will be better off this way....

To tell u the truth, I miss her alot, I miss everything abt her but to prevent her from getting hurt farther by me, I have to let go.....

And this week really sux.... Applied for leave on Friday, so that I can go out with my mum and attend Fo Tang lesson... However I fell sick on Friday... Having sore throat and fever... Feeling much better now coz I just went to see a chinese physician.... haiz... it just sux,...

well that all....

Silence ;

Was feeling very tired for the previous 2 weeks that y I did not update my blog.... haha.... Have been constantly bugged with some problems these days....

I wonder whether any1 could give an answer on how to express one's thinking without hurting the heart of a protective mother??? I know my mum is worried abt me for being in a relationship now when I'm always so tired when I book out from from camp.... I must admit that it is such an itch to keep hearing the same thing coming from mum.... I mean I love my mum, I know she is concern but no matter what this is still my decision to make....

Haiz.... Sometime it is really hard to compromise fillial piety with the expression of a growing up opinions.... How I wish I could be uncaring abt others??? But LM have been very merciful to grant me such good quality.... Maybe it is a test again... I duno .... All I know is that I'm going crazy soon....

Just realise that I have been throwing my temper around very frequently.... Duno what wrong with me as well.... Wonder where have all my patience and mild attitude been to.... Perhap I have not been having enough rest.... thus explaining the temper..... No matter what I will curb my temper and restore myself back to the original old good wise and mature Lawrence who doesn't lose his temper unless something serious have happened..... This is my promise.... I will fulfill it....

Things between dear and me are getting better.... At least we r opening ourselves out to each other instead of just trying to make each other happy and suffer alone in silence.... haha.....

Quite silly, come to think abt it....

Well, I'm not going to type anymore.... Coz I'm very tired and tml I have to meet dear to catch " A Good Year" together at the new Cathey building....

Cya around soon.... Good Nite!!!

Silence ;