& Silence Declares♥

Message to Kat

Lot of things happen yesterday....

First and foremost, I'm really sorry for making you mad again, Kat.... I have just seen your entry on your blog... You are right that I just can't compare your sylabus and mine... I know there are alot of extra stuffs added in your syllabus... So I'm just being a jerk to say it that how easy it was... I'm also sorry that I have always say that 'A' level subjects is easy... I'm trying to encourage you to carry on working and not give up by going to poly... I guess my reverse pyschology backfired.... I know how frustrating it is to not be able to achieve what you want.... I experience it alot of times in my 2 gruelling JC years... Y do you think I was so happy when I got B B D, C6 for my 'A' Level result earlier this March? It is because after all the setbacks I get during the 2 year have shattered whatever confidence in me toward studies... Let me be frank... I'm sorry if that hurt... But the key problem with you is that you can't make up your mind on what you want.... And regarding dropping of your subject combi, there is nothing you can do unless you make up your mind on what you want and set a goal.... I'm not trying to tell you what to do... But based on my experience, I see that as the most crucial factor... You may not agree, but whether to heed that advise still very much depend on you.... As you have said, it is your life, not mine.... Why should I give so much concern over it? I just don't want you to regret your actions.... I believe you know very well on the concept of 1 bearing consequences of 1 action.... I admit I have say the wrong stuffs last night that made you blew your top.... So I understand why you are angry with me.... I duno how long you will be angry with me... But just to let you know:

You are a very special friend to me apart from Jovi and Tracy!!! I value you as much as I value them as my friends.... It hurts me when I see you struggling and there is nothing i can do.... All I can do is to use my mouth and encourage you or advise you... Because utimately, you are the one who can help yourself at the end of the day....

Secondly, do you think my A2 in 'O' Level Chem and my B in 'A' Level Chem came that easily to me? I maybe a guy who can understand chem reletively easiler... But I'm not a genius.... I have also put in alot of hardwork to get whatever I have achieved.... Yes, you are facing a difficult period in your studies now... But that doesn't mean I had it any easiler during my time in J1... Each of us have been that kind of difficult period during our J1 year.... Yes, I know your hand give you alot of problems in practical.... and I know you are never good with practical.... Like what Mrs Serene Chu have told me once, not everyone is born a genius, but they succeeded at the end of the day by learning from their mistakes and put in consisent hard work.... so the message across to you now is that it is not a sealed fate for you to not do well in SPA... Coz your hard work will pay off eventually.... It is easy to give up after a setback, but whether you can motivate yourself to work again is the key... So jia you!!!

I dun want lose you as my friend for some stuffs I have said.... I really treasure you as my god-sis... I have lose enough friends to make me realise that.... Please dun give up on our friendship.... I enjoy every single moments I have spend with you!!!!

I really hope you will see this entry.... Lastly, I'm really sorry....

Silence ;