& Silence Declares♥

To that person: I'm sorry that I can't face u or even talk to u now... I just can't control my emotion anymore... Though I'm trying my best to fulfill my promise to u that "no matter what happen I will always stay happy and cheerful.." But this time round I really cannot smile anymore...

Trying to 挣作... But I just can't.... This blow is just too great... It is not ur fault... The prob just lies with me.... I just duno how to react... What should I do???

我真的爆掉了！！！

我好想忘记你，但是我又做不到。。。真对不起！！！

我想在这个期间我是没有办法再开心起来了。

谢谢你的坦白！！！

再见。。。

Silence ;

Went out with Kok Hou today to get his PSP and CD player repaired... His PSP LED screen crack coz it 'airborne' for his cupboard at home this morning... Went to Bugis and Wisma Atrium respectively...

Have been trying to keep myself occupied this few days... Not willing to think of anything about what have happened... Have a good chat with Edmundchew last night.... His words sort of woke me up abit.... 不过我还是感到很乱和烦！！！

Got to book in le....

Hope that I can still keep my cool...

And Cresendo is getting closer.... 13 more days to go... Let hope that I will recover before going to Cresendo...

Silence ;

To all of you who have ask me abt what happened, my answer to you is that I'm in no state to tell u all what have happened...

Firstly, I duno where to start from.
Secondly, I dun wan to poach this issue now...
Lastly, I really need some time to recover...

Just let me have a breather 1st... Will talk abt it once I'm ready... Really sorry abt it...

Silence: the most wonderful music on Earth... Lol!!!

Think I really going to 爆掉了...

Silence ;

Just change a new blog skin...

Current theme reflects my current mood and thinking at this phrase of my life...

Silence~

The most perfect peace ever exist~

Anyway, duno why I feel so terriblely alone...

This loneliness is eating me from inside out.... It feels as if not one in the world care for me anymore... Felt so left out suddenly....

Still in a mess...

*Da Jie, thank for ur concern, I really duno how to tell u what is going on with me... I'm sorry... Give me time to cool k? And dun worry too much... =)

Silence ;

This week is indeed one of the hardest week to pass... Lot of things to settled in camp...

Mon: settling all field plants stores from 8am to 9pm...
Tues: 16km route march + more works on field plants
Wed: EPO
Thurs: SOC + EPO + Bad news
Fri: Outcamp Run ( Still can't believe my PC makes a few guys and me run extra 2.5km... )

Really 爆掉!!!

Originally, I took off on monday coz I were hoping for a good rest and a day out with my friends... But my mum has better plan up in her sleeve; I will be accompanying her to entertain her clients for the whole monday...

Right now, different feelings are blending together in my heart .... As mention above, I receive some really bad news... My mood was totally gone...

I really didn't expect this to be happening... and I duno how to face the parties involved... I have never been so foolish and silly in my life so far... Unrequited love... Triangle love...
Never thought it will ever happen to me... However, it has come true...

M I really destinied to be in solitude??? Y it seems that I distanting from all my friends??? Y I have never been able to be accepted by others?? M I really a living joke walking around for people to laugh at??

I just hope Lao Mu can give me an answer now... But I know it is not possible coz I guess the probs lie entired on me and not others.... I shouldn't question others but me instead...

Will I ever get peace in my heart again???

Silence ;

A SOUL tormented,

A PART missing forever,

and A HEART that can never be whole again!!!

Result of a confession....

Nth much...

Hope that guy is fine....

Jia YOU!!!

=)

Silence ;

It has been 2 weeks since I blogged....

Sort of tired these two weeks due to increasing amount of training in camp.... Nth much to blog abt except that a new fo tang have been opened last week... Congrat to the new Tang Zhu....

As for me, life is stil the same, I'm still sticking to my decision of not confessing my feeling to the gal I like... I guess it is better that way, coz I dun wan to lose her friendship and the current status we have now....

After all, she is too precious to me... I can't afford to lose her....

However, I'm just so glad to see that she care alot for me... But to her, that is just a normal form of care for her best friend.... Haiz!!!

My feeling is getting out of control.... Maybe I should keep some check on my feeling so as to not let her know that I'm in love with her.... Got to cover my feeling for her...

Everytime I close my eyes, I can just see her smiling , hear her laughter and her cheerfulness... She will just pop into my mind whenever I read something related to love....

I felt lonely at times, wishing that she could be mine.... But I'm not sure of her feeling.... I shall not risk what I shared with her now...

Just wish that I could say this to *you: "I love you!!!"

Ciao~ got to book in liao....

Cya next time!!!

Silence ;

The bittersweet taste of love!!!

Just realise that I have been missing her more and more as the days pass by... Everyday, when I wake up, I will be checking for her smses, her last msg to me for the day and her 'good night' msges...

Think I would not be confessing my feeling to her so soon... Being her silence angel may not seem to fill my happiness, but at least I'm comfort to know that the least I could do for her is to ensure that she is happy and protecting her feeling will be my top priority....

At least I could comfort her whenever she is sad... At least, I can always be a phone call always from her... At least I still receive her smses...

Love is selfless!!! I agree totally with that statement... The kind of selfless giving to the one u love is so noble... I'm glad I have the chance to do it at least...

Even when I'm very tired as long she sms me, I will always have the energy to chat and reply her sms... Coz seeing her msges and hearing her voice will some how elevate the tireness away from my body....

I will work hard de!!!

Cya~

Silence ;