& Silence Declares♥

Went to watch Avatar today at Illuma....

Super nice and cool show... No wonder the rating for it is quite high... But i nv expect the show to be so long... It lasted for ard 2.5 hrs... Almost as long as LOTR 3... haha...

Met up with Mr Law today as well, so glad to see him and catching up with him... coz he has been very busy eversince he went to RI to teach... So there was no chance for me to have a good chat with him for a few years.... haa...

Xmas is coming soon... Yet, i'm going to be alone during xmas eve... haha... Can any kind soul save me???

Silence ;

I wonder how did Harry felt when Ron and Hermione was together...

Did he felt neglected??? Was the balance among their friendship still there??? Or did the balance just scatter???

Today was GM's 21st Birthday celebration... It seems to be a big affair with quite a few common friend being invited... However, it is kinda ironic that i felt really out of place and really neglected... This is not due to the host... But due to the response between our common friend and me...

I just duno why that it seems i'm not impt to them... I felt really left out from the start... when they sit down, they nv leave a seat for me... They saw me being very quiet today, and yet they have nv ask me what is wrong...

When they were at the playground and i walk past them, they never call out to me to ask me to join them...

I have alot of doubts in my mind... Am I really impt to them??? or am i just another passerby???

I loathe myself, my character, my way of handling stuffs... I hate everything abt me...

Why do i always have to be so selfish and only think abt myself???

Why i always act as if i'm the big brother out there, when all i want to be was a younger brother receiving all the attentions and love...

Why do i feel left out so easily???

Why do i get jealous too???

ANd why am i so afraid to lose my friends if i show them my weakness...

WHY????????????????????? What is wrong with me??? why do i have to be the person who i am now??? I absolutely HATE MYSELF!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I should just wall myself off... That way, it might be better for everyone around me... Afterall, life would be so much better without an utter idiot like me around...

Silence ;

Heyo, I'm finally back... Sorry for the long absence...

Last week was ICT week... Even though i can book out everything, but i was seriously too tired to do anything... So i will end up sleeping after i shower... haha....

Den Sat was Dennis and Jannis' Wedding, being Dennis' brother was really fun.. haha... But that day i got mobilised back to camp at 2pm... Den have to rush back home and rush over to Tian Guo at only 6pm... Felt so bad for being late... But quite fun... This was the first time i get to usher guest in the wedding dinner, open door for the couple entrance, yam seng on stage and lastly, organise the table for photo shoot with the bride and groom... haha... =)

Den sunday was a packed day too... Morning got zhaodai, afternoon got lesson, at night still got zhaodai... haha...

I'm really enjoying my holidays so far... Hope it wun end so soon...

gtg... cya` O ya... B4 i forget, bon voyage to everyone who are going to taiwan this week... =D

Silence ;

WooHoo... finally end all the miseries of having exams... haha...

To summerise everything:

CBC 212: this paper was quite alright, just hope that there is no careless...

CBC213: Almost die with all the twist added to the questions, but still quite manageable..

CBC931: S/U mod, so just hope to get a S...

CBC961: My fav mod, hopefully can get the grade for it...

HG803: Total killer, dun really know how to do 1 question... But S/U... So hope to get S...

Up next would all the xmas prep... =)

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