& Silence Declares♥

为了爱，我是应该勇敢的走下去。

《彩虹雨》

Silence ;

Have been watching <<爱，无限>>, this song is the opening theme song. It is really meaningful and true. Kinda describe my in depth feeling now.

曲名:<我們都怕痛>

她說她再也不相信真愛
我能給的安全感也用完
原本的孤單已變成不安
像看穿卻又放不下依賴

看著她低頭勇敢牽著她就走
別怕只要在一起就能穿越黑晝
她的眼睛說愛太迷人卻猜不透
她的脆弱只有我能看懂

我們都怕痛但又好想試著牽手
兩顆心隱藏在背後不敢承諾
不想再難過丟棄回憶重新來過
讓我永遠牽著妳把手給我

她說她再也不相信真愛
我能給的安全感也用完
原本的孤單已變成不安
像看穿卻又放不下依賴

看著我低頭她說她願跟我走
好怕讓她心碎的痛又反覆折磨
我的眼睛說笑或淚我都會守候
她是我唯一執著的執著

我們都怕痛但又好想試著牽手
兩顆心隱藏在背後不敢承諾 (不敢為愛承諾)
不想再難過丟棄回憶重新來過
讓我永遠牽著妳把手給我

Silence ;

In every relationship, we need stability, security, trust and initiative.

In view of all these, I somewhat feel that my relationship is not progressing, in fact as the day passes, it is deteriorating.

Dear was joking with me the other day that we r at the ‘相见如冰’ stage. Although I laugh with her, but i felt that way. Everyone might thinks that dear and me are doing fine in the relationship. In actual fact, we are not.

For one, we are not doing any of the romantic things that a couple are doing. Eg: we don't make a really crazy decision last min and execute it. She will be the one with lot of consideration which end up killing the mood.

Then, we are not meeting up as often as we should, I guess that is cause both of us ain't taking the initiative to do so at all. y? Coz we are afraid of being rejected.

Thirdly, any date that I want to have with her end up being a group outing coz our clique will somehow join us or she would invite them. Even if i reject the idea, she will give me her reason which make me give in. (70% of the time)

Lastly, we dun chat on the phone as daily coz our timing is super off. She will always slp by the time I get home. (Eg: 10 to 11pm)

And whenever, we try to solve the issues, the efforts are rather half hearted coz we will start taking things for granted after 1 week or so.

Did we trust each other too much or we are really slowly drifting off? Now that is the real question.

Silence ;

人与人之间往往都是以要求来对待彼此。那又有多少人是以一颗真诚和温馨的爱心来对待大家呢？

This question kinda strike me with all the issues happening at home. I'm worried and yet I can't do much. I'm just worried that tragedy will struck my family soon.

All I could is to be strong and pray fervently that nothing will happen.

Everyone around always says that I try too hard all the times. But they dun understand how heavy a burden I'm carrying on my shoulder. Why do I always try so hard? It is cause I just want to bring happiness to people around me. It is because by doing so, I know I still have hope to save and protect what is dearest to me.

But I guess at times, I brought more unhappiness to people around me rather than a smile to their face.

I didn't know why I shared so much with Li Ru and Yi Xian on the way home from RCB tonight. I think that is cause I just need to relieve the pressure off my chest. I'm thankful to see the genuine concern and advices given by them.

I always feels that I'm really blessed by Lao Mu. Coz she always surrounds me with people who cares a lot for me and are willing to spread their love to me.

But I always feel guilty because of LM's gesture coz I always think bad about others, I always do things that I want to do. and coz I'm not as perfect as what LM and others expect of me. I'm super immatured and only bring unhappiness to others.

Yet LM have nv give up on me and she always try to bring the best out of me. Sometime it is hard for me to make the correct decision, but I'm always glad for all the advices given by others as well as LM divine arrangement to let things turn out right.

Honestly, I miss those carefree times, but I know I have to go through all these so that I can be stronger, tougher and more resilient. I know all these are just part of the plan that LM have for me to be able to handle greater responsibilities.

Despite the odd, I will overcome it with my limited wisdom and strength.

Coz 信，愿，行，证 is the path to overcoming all probs in the world as long as u r willing to take the first step in believing and executing.

To the question above, I'm glad that I'm surrounded by ANGELS who always treat me truthfully from the bottem of their hearts. Thank Angels!!! ( u know who u r, people! =D )

Good night people.

Silence ;