& Silence Declares♥

修道要一以贯之。

这果然是一句金玉良言。

我要得以贯之！

This is a reminder to myself! I will not let those who care for me down.

Silence ;

用心与用情真的只是一线之差如此简单吗？

感恩上天慈悲让我又能进步了。

我会紧记在心的。

加油，吉淞!

Silence ;

Here I am again!!!

Taking a break from all the organic stuffs in natural product chemistry. Gosh!!! I getting tired! lol.. haha

After the chat with Li Ru in the afternoon and the chat with Yi Xian last night, they gave me a lot of food for thought. I'm really grateful to them coz at this point of time I know what to do and how should go about achieving it.

I understand everyone is very concern about my well being at this point of time, I'm really grateful and appreciative of it. But have faith in me. I know what I'm doing and I will be able to settle all the issues one by one. All I need is an encouragement and not a reprimand.

But no matter what I have receive so far, I'm grateful coz this show that all of u really care for me.

Thanks people!

I will fight on.

Silence ;

Just got home about half an hour ago!

I just got to thank a few people today.

Yi Xian: thanks for have a cup of drink with me after RCB just now. It was a really nice chat. Thanks for ur super interesting analogy! will rmb to apply it de.

Li Ru: Thanks for making me laugh for the whole studying session. =D Looking forward to study with u and the rest!

Jia Yi: Heyo, today then I really know how 'interesting' u r! haha.. Thanks for the joke! =D

Anyway, I just said my san bao today, although it is imperfect, but I'm grateful for the learning experience! Yi Xian, u r next!!! hahaa... Jia You! looking forwards to your san bao sharing next week.

Handed in my final report for mini FYP today too! another thing off my chest.

Jia you Lawrence! Will try to fulfill what I have promise myself to do after my chat with Yi Xian tonight!

Silence ;

Maybe I'm not good enough for everyone around me coz I'm bad and selfish?

Silence ;

Thanks Yi Xian, Zhong Hong, Li Ru and Chen Jie Jie for making me smile so much during our journey to TG and back from TG.

Really grateful to have them around to cheer me up. Gan En Ci Bei!!! =D

To my 2 beloved di di, sorry that kor reply u so late after RCB!!! Thanks for cheering me up despite everything that have happen so far. xxcb! =D

Silence ;

These few days although I'm studying, or out with my friends, I have been putting on a smile on my face to prevent them from knowing something have happen between us.

I have been thinking of whether to forgive u or to prevent myself from getting hurt. I have seen all the smses that u have sent me so far. But I can't help but to be scared.. Scared of getting hurt by ur words with u not knowing it again.

Whenever I look at my ring, I will think of the time I put on our promise ring on u during our 6th month monthiversary. That memory brought me joys and yet it is reminding me of the number of times I got hurt.

I know u dun mean it, but the damage is done. I told u I need some time coz I'm not brave enough to face the hurt again. With all the tests, report and exam coming up, I will need to focus on them first. Let maintain status quo.

JY for ur fyp. Hope u can get something.

Silence ;

It is always like this, u said some stuff that is hurtful to me and then u just walk away and happily forget about it.

When I tell u about it, then u just tell me that u dun talk liao.

Just who am I to u? A straw doll that u can poke needle into and then just leave the needle there and dump the doll away?

Straw doll can't feel, but me as a human can feel.

I can only say I disappointed. If one day, I'm really gone, please remember to treat others better than how u treated me.

That way, at least that person wun hurt so much and wun be so disappointed as I do.

Silence ;

原来这一句“you better get used to it" 有如此地恐怖。因为这一句话把我对你的信心给打碎了。

I was all prepared to move on till I saw this sentence in the sms that morning. It defeated me totally. All my hopes was crashed at the moment.

I duno whether to continue to move out of this situation.

I'm in a conflict now.

Silence ;